Goodbye

 I have now come to realize what one of the greatest hardships in life is. Now it may seem over-dramatic or what not, but this hardship has to do with one single little word: goodbye. Often when we say goodbye we know we’ll be seeing that person or whomever in the near future. Sometimes we think we won’t see them again. Other times we think we won’t see them but somehow end up meeting again at one point or another. One of the scariest things, though is not knowing. It’s scary to not know when you’ll ever see that person again if at all. It’s also sad to know you’re somewhat helpless in this. You have to say goodbye for now and sit back and watch someone leave you. Whether you know it’s for the best or not, it hurts. It hurts to know they’re leaving you. It hurts to think about how all of the memories or talks or anything might just become faded memories. And for that time, you can’t make new memories with them. This kind of goodbye isn’t something you say to your friend who you know you’ll see in a few minutes, hours, or days. This is the kind of goodbye that you can’t stop thinking about. The goodbye that leaves tears on you face as you fall asleep at night. But this is all for a greater good. Sometimes we need the goodbyes to lead us to more hellos. Sometimes we need those goodbyes to teach us to love and appreciate the people around us more. And at the end of the day, yeah we can cry thinking about that missing part in our lives, but we can also hope for a day when they’ll come back and we’ll give the faded memories vibrancy again. Just hope for that day. For now, hope for the day they’ll come back and you can feel comforted by their presence and warm embrace again. Have faith in that because it’s all you really can do. Hope… 

Heroes

Heroes. These are very unique people. Now, what is a hero? I think that’s something for every individual to figure out for themselves. If I say the word ‘hero,’ what would you think of? Some might think of Superman or Iron Man or whoever else. Others might think of their grandparents, mother, father, sibiling, etc. Again, I think it all has to do with the individual. But, I do think too often we look up to find a hero. No, I’m not talking about heaven or anything, but rather we look for a man in a cape. We look up and expect to find a hero to save us from our troubles. We look for that Prince Charming to rescue us. But there’s this, what about the people right in front of us? What about the people right in front of our own eyes trying to help us? What about the people there for us day-in and day-out? What about the people that love and care for us? What about the people that’ll talk to you and listen to you and help you through struggles? Heroes are different to every person but that’s my definition of a hero. It’s a person that might not fly in to catch you from that burning building, but rather catch your tears. To show you compassion and love on you when it seems no one else will. There’s also another kind of hero. You. You can be your own hero. For some, it my not seem possible to be your own hero. I mean, how can you save yourself from your own self-destruction? For others, it may just not seem possible for other reasons. But, within everyone there is some kind of hero. Society teaches children from a small age that they need someone to save them. You always see a princess stuck in a tower just waiting for years upon years. Now, I’m not suggesting we don’t need help every now and then but they portray it as if everyone is helpless, unless you’re the hero. Why can’t we all be some kind of hero, though? We all have some sort of spark within us. We all can be some sort of hero.

And what happened to me? I was set aside. I was put on the shelf with the outdated and lousy stuff. The shelf filled with dust. I was left to be worthless yet again. So are you happy now? Of course you are because you didn’t even notice. I slowly was moved to that shelf. Slow enough to the point where you don’t even remember me. Me? Who am I? I don’t even know anymore.

Cupcakes

 I find it funny how so unnoticed someone can be until they have something others can have. I am usually under the radar. I stand at lunch everyday and, yes, some notice me, but for the most part, I’m invisible. I’ve never understood how when I bring cupcakes everyone all of a sudden loves me. Then I finally got it; no one actually cares about me but they care about what I have to give to them. I witnessed this the other day when someone brought cupcakes to the lunch room and everyone all of a sudden was looking at her. Soon enough, person after person, people started lining up to ask for one. I just don’t get it though. Why do people do this? They entirely kick people to the curb unless they themselves get something out of it. Why can’t we just look at people for who they are inside rather than saying “what can I get out of the deal?” In the end, it doesn’t really matter if you got that cupcake or whatever because what truly matters is the deep, sincere relationships that we share with others. 

Oblivion

 Oblivion is everywhere, and if you haven’t figured that out by now, than you’re probably oblivious yourself. I looked up after taking a math test to see every single person in the room on their phones or whatnot. Somehow I felt this feeling of disappointment in society. Is this what life is like now? Is everyone going to be on their electronics and worrying about selfies and so on? Everyone is so oblivious to everything. I can’t say that I’m not oblivious myself, but does anyone else go out and look at nature anymore? Does anyone look at the little things in life? I feel like so much stuff is just handed to kids/teens now days. Oh, here’s some money, a phone, a car, and the list can go on and on. No one can think for themselves because they are being babied and taken care of so much so that they don’t notice the little things or anything for that matter. Oblivion is everywhere. We’re oblivious to people, nature, art, love, thoughts, etc. etc. All we need to do is stand out, though. Look closer at that flower, appreciate that hug, or just listen. Watch that sunset with your own two eyes instead of spending all your time posting it to Instagram because in the end, you’ll remember the moments in your life, not the picture you posted that got 100 likes. So, don’t be like society and most of the people around you. Look just a little closer and you’ll see.